BLOG 5           October 2018

The opening of Swan song on September 29 was great; warm, loving and intimate. A wonderful day.

Adriaan spoke a nice opening word that I enclose, as well as some pictures.


BLOG 4           September 2018

While I am working on the last preparations for the exhibition in Rotterdam, I also organize dinner parties. Last week I invited good friends and shared the developments of the past weeks. I also showed the recent paintings of the series Swan song and was surprised by the reaction of Asrin.
While we were standing in the studio surrounded by the paintings, she said that in the beginning she did not understand the paintings of the swans at all. She could not put her finger on why I made them.
In short, I told her that I often do not know myself, but that I had a special experience a few days earlier. I visit a Pilates class weekly and l was lying on my back on a mat when my thoughts went to Leda and the swan. A strange thought came up: “I am Leda and the swan myself,” I said, “at first I was dead in my own arms, then I began to heal myself, and finally I began to love myself. And this whole series is made around the treatments against a deadly disease, isn’t this a strange story? ”
Asrin was quiet and when I looked at her I saw her eyes filled with tears. I embraced her and we stood in silence between works.
I do not know exactly what happened, but later she wrote: “Of course I had seen some of the paintings, but when I saw the last canvas in your studio, I felt very emotional. I did not quite understand the swans earlier. Now every detail of those paintings is important to me. Suddenly I saw everything very clearly. It may sound vague, but I’ve been thinking a lot about the paintings, you and me since this day. The swans now tell a story. I think that if I were to sit in front of those paintings and write about how I associate myself with the paintings, I now can do that for a long time. ”
The series of swans has been completed now. And I am looking forward to show them.

BLOG 3           Augustus 2018

She is one of the greatest gifts that life gave me, Rosaline, born 29 years ago and since then a presence that I do not want to miss for gold. She is a model from the first moment and often produces sparkling surprises. She likes photography and made this little video when Alf Mertens came to photograph me. So wonderful.

BLOG 2            July 2018

People can inspire me enormously. For example, a few years ago, I was visited by a young entrepreneur who fascinated me so much that I made a painting in which I united his two greatest loves. Professionally he has a company that focuses on the market of 3D printed skull implants. In his private life, just a few weeks before we were introduced to one another, he met the love of his life. At that time he showed me his company and also introduced me to a stunning young woman. Both made a big impression on me. It was the love that I felt and recognized that inspired me. The love to do something good for others, to be meaningful. The skull implants are of great significance in the medical world. The girlfriend was not just a beautiful woman to love, but someone he felt the responsibility for to keep on loving her. Through thick and through thin.

I then made a painting of her in which I painted a skull implant in the shape of a heart in her head. The painting was given the title Look with love. And it does its job 😉 It has already hung in different places and I’ve had many nice reactions to it.

BLOG 1          July 2018

Have you ever lost your hair?

I do.

I lost it two years ago because of the treatments against a deadly disease.

Although hairs are not that important compared to many other things you can lose in your life, it was joyous to see that they came back slowly, along with my condition. After a year of growth and recovery of what I can call my physical low, I was happy with my new self. Then came the realization that what I experienced has fundamentally changed me. In a positive way; I am so happy with every day, every hour, every minute … with now now. Because this moment is all you have, there is no more. Believe me.

Of course I had these new hairs photographed.

Photo Alf Mertens, 2018